Last night I woke at 3am. It is now 7.45 😀. I did some guided meditation which was relaxing but I didn't go back to sleep. Oh well...it was only one night. Tonight will be better.
Emotionally this is a rollercoaster and I am coming to terms with that and giving myself permission to have a shit day and just then get in with it again. Just have to keep going really as what's the alternative. To help myself i am walking, maybe I will try an exercise group. I will eat healthy when I can but if I don't well I don't. I am about to start chemo so who knows how I will go. I have been practicing meditation. Still learning and practicing but I think it helps. I also use an app called Delightful which reminds me at a certain time every day to be greatful for 3 things. It helps i think. I am trying to put tools in place to help me get through this. I have suffered depression in the past but I am not depressed now. Hopefully it stays that way.