I've Had A Week
In the last seven days: - I had a Covid19 test - negative - I finally got the guts up to raise body image and sex with a doctor during a telehealth consult with a doctor at a menopause after cancer clinic. Not a single doctor has ever raised this subect with me. - I had a check up with my breast surgeon. Back again in six months instead of 12 because the right foob is lumpy. - My son came to me in a panic about finding a lump on his testicles, I took him to the doctor, and then back again for the ultrasound results. A cyst, thankfully not a tumour. When I was telling him to calm down he said "I know Mum but it's US". - My youngest got her first period. And all this during Stage 4 Lockdown. I am exhausted. I feel like I'm always on high alert. Stop the world, I want to get off... K xox
Feeling a bit down
Hi, it's been a while since I last posted. I was first diagnosed in Jan 2018, had a lumpectomy followed by 12 rounds of chemo followed by 25 rounds of radiation. I was pushed into menopause and then last year had a double mastectomy. All of this I think I managed relevantly well but just lately I have been struggling with sleeping, eating and just things in general. The tiniest thing annoys me so much and this never happened before, I'm not sure if the current situation is to blame with not being able to socialize like we did previously and not being able to go out shopping when I feel like it, having to cancel weekends away etc, etc. I couldn't tell you how many times during the night I wake up and then struggle to get back to sleep and if I have a glass of wine to help me relax this just makes sleeping 10 times worse. Food..if I didn't have to eat it I wouldn't eat it. I used to enjoy food but not anymore, I know I have to eat but I don't enjoy it and when I do eat I just walk, run or exercise more. What annoys me the most is that I know there are people out there who are a lot worse off than me and I should be grateful for everything I have and not feel like I am feeling but how do I stop feeling like this??