Ah @Zoffiel. Im sorry that you are also wading through treacle.
I do have a psychologist i can see. Im a bit embarrassed now but yes I can touch base.
I bought a couple of "after cancer" type books for my kindle last night. Maybe im looking for something a bit spiritual, i dont know.
Its good to make light of it and I did but ive become a person whose presence and comments can make others uncomfortable. Im trying to adjust relationships. My 50th is coming up and whilst im thrilled to be alive I dont feel like partying. Im surveying the damage...