Chemo brain -overwhelmed by my life

@Sister as long as you are happy, that is the important thing to remember.  :)

@Keeping_positive1 I think her comment was more along the lines that my expectations of myself were very high and that I, along with the people around me, still expected that I could keep all the info in my head and deliver as required and that it was important that I accepted the impact that the trauma of diagnosis and treatment had had on me.  With some strategies in place, I have mostly been able to continue at a reasonable level but that high-functioning that I took as part of me, has gone.  Getting others to accept that as well has been a long journey.  Family mostly along for the ride (and jokes aside, very supportive) but it has been more challenging at work:  "Don't you remember that?"  "You must remember that!"  No - sorry, I have absolutely no recollection.  Do you have evidence?  Yes?  Well, it must have happened then.  Good on ya!  Funnily enough, I work in a high school and for some reason anything relating to a particular Shakespearean play has disappeared into a black hole.  Some might find that disturbing while others would consider it deserving.  :D

@June1952 yes I am impressed!! And about bloody time I say, that you put yourself first!! 🥳🥳👏🏻👏🏻😀😀. 

@Sister was your psychologist suggesting you were operating at a "superwoman" level before, as many "average" women wouldn't operate at that higher level.  If that is the case I find that comment by your psychologist to be a backhanded comment in regards to how she/he views many women in general.  Your reality is your reality, and you needed to be taken seriously.  I hope things are improving for you.  Best wishes.

Perfectly put @Keeping_positive1.  Us women are trained from early on to take care of others and in that process we leave the importance of ourselves way behind.
I am not young but I have now decided to put me at the top of the list for a change !  (Impressed @FLClover ?).  This is beginning with the 'little' things such as treating myself and I will work up to bigger expectations of others.

@Keeping_positive1 yep 👌🏻👌🏻

Totally agree @Keeping_positive1 with your comment about about being everything to everyone- it doesn't work! I tried it 🙂 and it failed for me. I now put myself first every day. You can't give from an empty cup as they say 

Can you take leave from work?  I seriously think so many women just try to juggle too many balls these days, we don't have to.  Give some others some responsibilities.  I hope I don't upset anybody by saying this, but truly we need to look after our health much better.  Don't try to be everything to everybody, I have tried that, it just doesn't work.  

Ie only just gone back to work after annual leave!

Hi @Sister,

We are in school hols right now. I wake them at noon! I dont actually remind them about schoolwork or anything but medication, appts yes because guess who gets to make appts. Im responsible for their health. 

Ive been "fortunate" to be unwell - virus of some kind (covid test says no) - and cancelled all this weeks appointments. I feel much better mentally as overwhelm is gone. I also had day off work. I think its just the stress of juggling all the balls and dropping them occassionally spectacularly. I "caught up" with some admin. Still have a whoopsie to fix. 

Maybe i need a mental health day occassionally and reduce rushing between all the appts.