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Anyone ever get sick of being their own science experiment?????
I really get the shits with overthinking every so often. Things that "before" you would never have thought twice about doing, eating or cleaning your house with now make you second guess a lot of things. Obviously I am not the only one considering the amount of conversations that go on here regarding the do's, don'ts and what can we change that might help to stop it coming back. Looking for answers on what we did to bring it on. Self blame and guilt is still rampant no matter how much it shouldn't be.
BC is not your fault. That fucker broke in you didn't invite it in by living a normal life like millions of other people do.
I don't think anything I did brought it on, nor do I seriously think that anything I eat, drink or do will have much of a bearing on whether or not it reappears. I am a believer of dodgy genes, mutant cells,bad luck and not everything was nuked if it comes back. Will the tablets work? Maybe they will, maybe they wont. "May the odds be forever in your favour"
Mostly I ignore the over analysing thoughts, but every so often they creep in uninvited. I conduct clinical trials on myself to see if things help with side effects. Should I be doing that, I really have no knowledge of what interferes with what apart from what I can google which can have 10 different answers to the same question.
I had a cold...do I take vitamin C or not? Should I take any kind of vitamins or supplements. How the heck would I know. My levels are good so what is the point.
Don't eat this, don't drink this, don't rub that on. Will that interfere with the drugs? OMG I drank a bottle of wine, that shits definitely coming back now.
Eat soy, don't eat soy, not that I really care about soy, quite frankly I think it tastes like crap but you know.
Sweet potato is good for you, sweet potato is high in oestrogen, best not. Nuts are good for you, nope not today. Kale (gross) celery alfalfa, tofu, olives, olive oil, red wine. Great for your heart, nope, high in oestrogen. Eat meat, don't eat meat, don't dare grill it if you do. Flax seed and tumeric is awesome, uh oh, no not for you it isn't, too many phytoestrogens. Oh but hang on, in normal people they might help prevent cancer. Freaking strawberries and peaches are on the no no list.
The list is endless, confusing and mostly without any kind of definitive answers. Might, maybe, could do, possibly, we don't know. Pick any subject or food and you will find people raving about how fantastic it is and on another page how it gave you cancer.
Don't you drink that chamomile tea and don't you even think about smelling that fucking lavender :)
Blah. Ok I'm done.
Hugs to all.
xoxoxo
BC is not your fault. That fucker broke in you didn't invite it in by living a normal life like millions of other people do.
I don't think anything I did brought it on, nor do I seriously think that anything I eat, drink or do will have much of a bearing on whether or not it reappears. I am a believer of dodgy genes, mutant cells,bad luck and not everything was nuked if it comes back. Will the tablets work? Maybe they will, maybe they wont. "May the odds be forever in your favour"
Mostly I ignore the over analysing thoughts, but every so often they creep in uninvited. I conduct clinical trials on myself to see if things help with side effects. Should I be doing that, I really have no knowledge of what interferes with what apart from what I can google which can have 10 different answers to the same question.
I had a cold...do I take vitamin C or not? Should I take any kind of vitamins or supplements. How the heck would I know. My levels are good so what is the point.
Don't eat this, don't drink this, don't rub that on. Will that interfere with the drugs? OMG I drank a bottle of wine, that shits definitely coming back now.
Eat soy, don't eat soy, not that I really care about soy, quite frankly I think it tastes like crap but you know.
Sweet potato is good for you, sweet potato is high in oestrogen, best not. Nuts are good for you, nope not today. Kale (gross) celery alfalfa, tofu, olives, olive oil, red wine. Great for your heart, nope, high in oestrogen. Eat meat, don't eat meat, don't dare grill it if you do. Flax seed and tumeric is awesome, uh oh, no not for you it isn't, too many phytoestrogens. Oh but hang on, in normal people they might help prevent cancer. Freaking strawberries and peaches are on the no no list.
The list is endless, confusing and mostly without any kind of definitive answers. Might, maybe, could do, possibly, we don't know. Pick any subject or food and you will find people raving about how fantastic it is and on another page how it gave you cancer.
Don't you drink that chamomile tea and don't you even think about smelling that fucking lavender :)
Blah. Ok I'm done.
Hugs to all.
xoxoxo
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- Chihuahuas so small they only count as a tidbit so not worth the effort.
- OMG @kitkatb,
That same thing happened to a chihuahua of ours many years ago. Bloody wedgies. He was ok as well. - :o :D
- I've seen a flying chihuahua @Zoffiel I was in the NT on a big cattle station where we were all commencing beer o clock at the end of the day under the trees. (no we weren't pissed Lol ) One of the pilots who had flown in had bought his little dog out with him which we all watched halfheartedly as it was minding its own business out on the flats ( in its little knitted jacket I might add ) Out of nowhere appeared a big wedge tail eagle and picked it up by its little Jacket. OMG We were all gobsmacked. The pilot took off running calling" Misty, Misty." The wedgy couldn't have had the best grip on its jacket and we all watched as the dog was deposited back to earth from a good height and from quite a good distance away by then in which time the pilot had finally caught up with them. ( No Chihuahua was hurt in this story. Yep it survived to live another day albeit it would run from tree to tree after that ) F**k we laughed afterwards once we knew it had survived.
- My two cents worth....... no doctor of mine ever indicated, suggested or said not to eat or drink something. While I am quite short & round, I am active & all the tests that need to be good are good. We don’t eat junk or takeaway very often, we drink alcohol, but not alllllll the time.......& my personal theory is that if having some particular foul tasting juice, fruit, or smoothie is probably not going to cure .......nor prevent cancer. I reckon that if there was some miracle smoothie or pill that would cure or prevent it the doctors would most likely be all over it.
But .......everyone is different.
Carmel - I like flying pugs better, too @zoffiel - besides, they'd hurt less if one fell on you.
- If I as much as LOOK at food I put on weight. I live with a very sedentary 87yo who eats far more than I do, and who moves far less than I do. Yet he never puts on a pound. I'm trying to lose weight because it's a risk factor in developing a number of cancers, inc bowel. I have an elevated chance of having that due to a gene mutation. Plus I feel better in my skin, and about myself if I am lighter. But I am tired all the time because I don't sleep well because of the hot flushes, which I have severely because of cancer treatment. I'm also often fatigued from Letrozole. Which I'm taking to stop the effing BC from coming back. It's a f*****g Catch 22. I'm doomed to failure. The energy required to maintain the mental discipline to NOT put the sugar in my mouth is massive. I can only ever manage short bursts. While cooking 'normal' food for my fast metabolism growing kids & inlaw. It is SO hard. And then I succumb to temptation. And then I'm consumed by guilt. Which makes me stressed. Which is also bad for my health. FFS you can't win! Breast cancer is a right royal total and utter mind and body f**k. GARGHHHH!
- I can't complain, I'm feeling well, apart from what a lot of us go through with letrozole, feeeling like a 90yr old til I get moving in the morning, stable at the moment, there are lots worse off than me.
- I think it’s just some sort of genetic predisposition and then it’s random bad luck. Just enjoy yourself and your food. Eat the cake and the chocolate I say.Just don’t go overboard that it causes some other health problem.Sorry to hear your story Kattykit- that just sucks that you did all you could and the damn thing came back.I hope you are going ok- sending hugs to WA.
- We can all overthink things - cancer can make us suspicious and wary. I think it was @kezmusc who once said that we all want more time but then spend too much of it worrying and fretting. I think I simplified a more complex comment but you get the drift. As far as is possible, the purpose of life is to be happy and make others happy.
