12 Years Cancer Free :)
Hi Lovely Pink Ladies.
Thank you for reading my post today!!!
Well, I am now officially 12 years cancer free in late August 2023 but I have had a few scares along the way as we all expect may happen including my latest saga.
In June this year I had my routine Mammogram and Ultrasound done at Qld Xray. Of course I was thinking that it would be fine. Mammogram seemed to be ok then I was waiting on the ultrasound soon after. During the ultrasound the radiographer was very thorough as you would expect. Paying particular attention to the left breast and armpit where my original cancer was. I asked if there was anything found and she said she needed to see the doctor that does the reports. Then as the radiographer walked out of the room to speak to the doctor that checks the results I waited expecting her to walk back in and I could leave.
How wrong was I? The radiographer came back into the room and asked me if I had an infection of any kind? I said no. Had an immunisation in my left arm? Again, no. Then she asked me if I had a cut on my left arm? I again said no, and then asked why was she asking me all these questions? I could tell by the look on her face straight away and that the length of time she was out of the room possibly meant something ominous was happening.
The radiographer then said that they had found something on my ultrasound. My heart literally sank in response. When something is found on an ultrasound you know how that feels right?
I asked what was it they had found? The lady said one of my lymph nodes was enlarged, and that it wasn't on any previous tests done. Luckily for me I'd had my previous Mammogram and Ultrasound in the same clinic so they could compare my results first hand and on the spot. I said how enlarged was it? She said enough to be concerned. Then she said she would again speak with the doctor. Of course my head was spinning, my first thought was CANCER!!!
I could feel the tears well in my eyes, as I am now typing this. I get so emotional when it comes to my mental state regarding this horrible disease. The radiographer seemed to take longer than the first time to speak to the doctor. About 20 mins later she returned again and she could tell how concerned I was. The lady handed me a request letter to get a FNA (Fine Needle Aspiration) done. I said would that be in a couple of weeks? The response was no you need to get this done by Tuesday next week urgently. I asked was it only the lymph nodes in question and whether they had found a lump? The lady said no only the node and that the Mammogram hadn't picked up a lump nor the Ultrasound as such. So I needed my gp to give me a referral. This was a Saturday afternoon I was walking out of there so by the time I got back to my car after paying my bill it was too late to get an appointment with my gp and the surgery was closed. I left a message on the machine to say I urgently needed an appointment.
Once I got home and my husband asked how I had gone at my appointment, I told him what had happened. The look on his face? He said to me, "oh no, is it cancer again?" I said I don't really know? I then told him how they want me to have an FNA immediately due to what was found. He hugged me straight away and I burst into tears. My husband knows exactly what I was going through with the worry and was my rock going through my breast cancer in 2011 to 2012. Then my husband asked how enlarged was it? I told him it was 6mm and with bulky features and poorly preserved hila. Also, that they wanted this done to rule out local recurrence. Category 3: INDETERMINATE FINDINGS. We were both so worried and I explained that I could not reach the gp yet as the surgery was closed. My husband said ring again tomorrow morning. Before I could ring the gp rang me and asked what was so urgent? I explained to him what had been found and he immediately arranged for a referral which was sent to me via email and to Qld Xray. On Monday they rang me with an appointment. They gave me one for the following Tuesday morning, which was the 20th of June at 10am.
Driving to that Tuesday appointment, again my head was racing and I was wondering if I would have cancer again and if I would have to go through chemo again and all the craziness that goes with it. I had my FNA done and had the feeling that there wasn't enough cells captured for a diagnosis on the enlarged lymph node. Sure enough the person that had done the FNA had trouble getting cells off the larger node. She asked me if she could do some multiple sweeps as she called it on other nodes in the area? I said. "I am here now, go for it."
Of course I was so anxious waiting the next 2 days for my gp appointment, where I got the news of not getting enough cells for an accurate diagnosis on the enlarged lymph node. I just knew it! I was not angry, just disappointed as I was hoping that it was all over. Of course it wasn't and only the beginning. The gp said that he would put me into the public system for an immediate appointment. I got a text the following week that it could be up to 30 days for an appointment. Then the next day I got a letter to say CATEGORY 1 30 days wait. I was so shocked of course as being a former cancer patient with possible recurrence was significant to me. I couldn't wait 30 days for an appointment, it would have driven me insane with the worry and the waiting. So I again went to see my gp who told me he could give me a private referral if I wanted? I said yes please.
The private doctor rang me with an appointment for the following week and that he wanted me to get a PET Scan done immediately. I felt so relieved even if I had to pay, at least things were happening. Then a day before my appointment with the private doctor I got a text with an appointment with the public hospital. The receptionist at the private surgery told me to take the public one because the doctor in question is also head of the department at the public hospital. I had to wait a week but at least I had a time frame and I could cope with that knowing a date.
The next day I got a phone call about the PET Scan and an appointment for the next day which was the 4th of July. I had to have a special diet to have my PET Scan done. I said to the man that rang me with the details, about how I am a Coeliac so I know all about a special diet as such. He said it was for everyone that got the scan so no biggie. Lol! Private joke obviously?
They told me to drink a lot of water for the scan. When you have had 3 children holding it isn't easy. I was told I could go to the toilet but of course while I was being infused with the tracer I was hooked up to a machine which was supposed to be an hour. After 45 mins I couldn't hold it any longer lol. The nurse said it was long enough for the procedure and that I could bolt to the toilet once I was unhooked. I sure did lol!!!
Then after the scan which was about 20 mins or so I again bolted to the loo! A little embarrassing for me but a necessary evil. After a nice cuppa and my gluten free snack I had brought in I was done.
I then waited for the results. I was amazed because I had the results around 6pm the same day. The doctor was incredible giving me this relief so soon. PET SCAN ALL CLEAR!!! If I had cancer anywhere in my body it would have lit up like a Christmas tree I was told. I had a PET Scan done back in 2011 too as a result of my highly aggressive non-invasive ductal carcinoma. It was a 3rd grade tumour and stage 2 non-hormonal. No secondary cancer which is what they were looking for back then.
OMG I was so thrilled and my husband too. I cried with relief although the scan has picked up a 3rd autoimmune disease to contend with. Then the wait to see the doctor at the public hospital. They examined me and told me that they wanted a follow up ultrasound done in 6 weeks time.
I've had the follow up Ultrasound last week and again the lymph node is still enlarged. The radiographer, oddly enough, was the same lady I had in late June with my first Ultrasound. Again when she left the room and was away for 20 mins I was concerned. I am at my wits end over this, was expecting that it had returned back to normal? No such luck!
They still have no idea why the node hasn't returned to normal and similar in size. So now I will need another follow up Ultrasound in 3 months time. My gp has already given me the referral and now I need to make another appointment. It has been suggested that I have a Mammogram next year in June 2024. Although I am still a Category 3 it is now classed as 'PROBABLY BENIGN FINDINGS' on the latest Ultrasound report.
I would just like to know why this lymph node is still so enlarged? I realise it can be from an infection and that it can be that way for months...but? They are still going to monitor it so at least I am still in the hospital system should anything change right? Watch this space for next scan results.
Finger's crossed for me that I can get off this emotional rollercoaster again please!!! :)
Thank you for reading my post today!!!
Well, I am now officially 12 years cancer free in late August 2023 but I have had a few scares along the way as we all expect may happen including my latest saga.
In June this year I had my routine Mammogram and Ultrasound done at Qld Xray. Of course I was thinking that it would be fine. Mammogram seemed to be ok then I was waiting on the ultrasound soon after. During the ultrasound the radiographer was very thorough as you would expect. Paying particular attention to the left breast and armpit where my original cancer was. I asked if there was anything found and she said she needed to see the doctor that does the reports. Then as the radiographer walked out of the room to speak to the doctor that checks the results I waited expecting her to walk back in and I could leave.
How wrong was I? The radiographer came back into the room and asked me if I had an infection of any kind? I said no. Had an immunisation in my left arm? Again, no. Then she asked me if I had a cut on my left arm? I again said no, and then asked why was she asking me all these questions? I could tell by the look on her face straight away and that the length of time she was out of the room possibly meant something ominous was happening.
The radiographer then said that they had found something on my ultrasound. My heart literally sank in response. When something is found on an ultrasound you know how that feels right?
I asked what was it they had found? The lady said one of my lymph nodes was enlarged, and that it wasn't on any previous tests done. Luckily for me I'd had my previous Mammogram and Ultrasound in the same clinic so they could compare my results first hand and on the spot. I said how enlarged was it? She said enough to be concerned. Then she said she would again speak with the doctor. Of course my head was spinning, my first thought was CANCER!!!
I could feel the tears well in my eyes, as I am now typing this. I get so emotional when it comes to my mental state regarding this horrible disease. The radiographer seemed to take longer than the first time to speak to the doctor. About 20 mins later she returned again and she could tell how concerned I was. The lady handed me a request letter to get a FNA (Fine Needle Aspiration) done. I said would that be in a couple of weeks? The response was no you need to get this done by Tuesday next week urgently. I asked was it only the lymph nodes in question and whether they had found a lump? The lady said no only the node and that the Mammogram hadn't picked up a lump nor the Ultrasound as such. So I needed my gp to give me a referral. This was a Saturday afternoon I was walking out of there so by the time I got back to my car after paying my bill it was too late to get an appointment with my gp and the surgery was closed. I left a message on the machine to say I urgently needed an appointment.
Once I got home and my husband asked how I had gone at my appointment, I told him what had happened. The look on his face? He said to me, "oh no, is it cancer again?" I said I don't really know? I then told him how they want me to have an FNA immediately due to what was found. He hugged me straight away and I burst into tears. My husband knows exactly what I was going through with the worry and was my rock going through my breast cancer in 2011 to 2012. Then my husband asked how enlarged was it? I told him it was 6mm and with bulky features and poorly preserved hila. Also, that they wanted this done to rule out local recurrence. Category 3: INDETERMINATE FINDINGS. We were both so worried and I explained that I could not reach the gp yet as the surgery was closed. My husband said ring again tomorrow morning. Before I could ring the gp rang me and asked what was so urgent? I explained to him what had been found and he immediately arranged for a referral which was sent to me via email and to Qld Xray. On Monday they rang me with an appointment. They gave me one for the following Tuesday morning, which was the 20th of June at 10am.
Driving to that Tuesday appointment, again my head was racing and I was wondering if I would have cancer again and if I would have to go through chemo again and all the craziness that goes with it. I had my FNA done and had the feeling that there wasn't enough cells captured for a diagnosis on the enlarged lymph node. Sure enough the person that had done the FNA had trouble getting cells off the larger node. She asked me if she could do some multiple sweeps as she called it on other nodes in the area? I said. "I am here now, go for it."
Of course I was so anxious waiting the next 2 days for my gp appointment, where I got the news of not getting enough cells for an accurate diagnosis on the enlarged lymph node. I just knew it! I was not angry, just disappointed as I was hoping that it was all over. Of course it wasn't and only the beginning. The gp said that he would put me into the public system for an immediate appointment. I got a text the following week that it could be up to 30 days for an appointment. Then the next day I got a letter to say CATEGORY 1 30 days wait. I was so shocked of course as being a former cancer patient with possible recurrence was significant to me. I couldn't wait 30 days for an appointment, it would have driven me insane with the worry and the waiting. So I again went to see my gp who told me he could give me a private referral if I wanted? I said yes please.
The private doctor rang me with an appointment for the following week and that he wanted me to get a PET Scan done immediately. I felt so relieved even if I had to pay, at least things were happening. Then a day before my appointment with the private doctor I got a text with an appointment with the public hospital. The receptionist at the private surgery told me to take the public one because the doctor in question is also head of the department at the public hospital. I had to wait a week but at least I had a time frame and I could cope with that knowing a date.
The next day I got a phone call about the PET Scan and an appointment for the next day which was the 4th of July. I had to have a special diet to have my PET Scan done. I said to the man that rang me with the details, about how I am a Coeliac so I know all about a special diet as such. He said it was for everyone that got the scan so no biggie. Lol! Private joke obviously?
They told me to drink a lot of water for the scan. When you have had 3 children holding it isn't easy. I was told I could go to the toilet but of course while I was being infused with the tracer I was hooked up to a machine which was supposed to be an hour. After 45 mins I couldn't hold it any longer lol. The nurse said it was long enough for the procedure and that I could bolt to the toilet once I was unhooked. I sure did lol!!!
Then after the scan which was about 20 mins or so I again bolted to the loo! A little embarrassing for me but a necessary evil. After a nice cuppa and my gluten free snack I had brought in I was done.
I then waited for the results. I was amazed because I had the results around 6pm the same day. The doctor was incredible giving me this relief so soon. PET SCAN ALL CLEAR!!! If I had cancer anywhere in my body it would have lit up like a Christmas tree I was told. I had a PET Scan done back in 2011 too as a result of my highly aggressive non-invasive ductal carcinoma. It was a 3rd grade tumour and stage 2 non-hormonal. No secondary cancer which is what they were looking for back then.
OMG I was so thrilled and my husband too. I cried with relief although the scan has picked up a 3rd autoimmune disease to contend with. Then the wait to see the doctor at the public hospital. They examined me and told me that they wanted a follow up ultrasound done in 6 weeks time.
I've had the follow up Ultrasound last week and again the lymph node is still enlarged. The radiographer, oddly enough, was the same lady I had in late June with my first Ultrasound. Again when she left the room and was away for 20 mins I was concerned. I am at my wits end over this, was expecting that it had returned back to normal? No such luck!
They still have no idea why the node hasn't returned to normal and similar in size. So now I will need another follow up Ultrasound in 3 months time. My gp has already given me the referral and now I need to make another appointment. It has been suggested that I have a Mammogram next year in June 2024. Although I am still a Category 3 it is now classed as 'PROBABLY BENIGN FINDINGS' on the latest Ultrasound report.
I would just like to know why this lymph node is still so enlarged? I realise it can be from an infection and that it can be that way for months...but? They are still going to monitor it so at least I am still in the hospital system should anything change right? Watch this space for next scan results.
Finger's crossed for me that I can get off this emotional rollercoaster again please!!! :)
