I'm aware of others struggles with cancer, it's treatments and side effects. I am certainly one of the lucky ones in respect to my diagnosis. But it's all relative, I'm coming up to 12 months of surgery and treatment, and being her+ and hormone receptor+ my treatment goes on and on. So lucky again I guess depending on your point of view. I applaud science and appreciate advances that give us all a better chance of survival. Prior to herceptin, a her2+ diagnosis was a death sentence.
My relectance for tamoxifen and future treatments is not to be ungrateful, of course I want to do everything I can to live a long and happy life. My frustration and sadness, when it creeps in, is because like so many, cancer robbed me of my fantastic forties and my good health, my beautiful strong body. At 41 I have felt weak and sick, sore and old. I look like a completely different person.
So I'm grateful for the life saving meds we have the luxury of having access to, and I need to accept the physical changes with a more positive outlook. It would be better to take each tablet with the view of how it is possibly saving my life. But give me back my pre cancer health when I'm done with treatment. I can't help just sometimes feeling angry/sad at my situation. Relative to others though, of course I am lucky and should just get on with it.
Xxxlouie