@Spillsy I've read that it's common to feel disconnected from your old life when you try to go back to it, that you are more serious than before. However I've also read that it passes. At a royal wedding gathering of only six, including three good friends, I felt distant and sombre. It wasn't distressing as such, but it wasn't a wonderful feeling. I sincerely hope it passes.
After six months I'm so tired of myself when it comes to my health! Surely everyone else must be bored... I type this sitting in a GP waiting room, about to see a doctor because my mastectomy & recon incisions are infected. Gargh! Will anything go smoothly again?? Now when people ask me, except for my closest friends, I just say I'm doing OK, or I'm getting there and leave it at that.
I regard my BC as a four quarter match. It's three quarter time now. I've had the diagnosis, wide local excision and re-excision. Then it was chemo. Followed by the BMX & recon. Next week heralds the start of the last and longest quarter, the 10 years of AI. I will not consider myself done with this f****r until the day after that last pill is taken, 2nd June, 2028. The day after that is my birthday. Now THAT will be a party.