Bit scared

Hi Karen - you're having a nightmare time right now, aren't you. I know after BC you can become petrified that the cancer has come back elsewhere. I have - twice. Once was when my vaginal atrophy was so bad I was bleeding, and of course thought I had vaginal cancer. It wasn't. The next time was incredible back pain, and the GP said 'we need to check it isn't bone cancer'. Not tactful, and not my normal GP. Turned out it was 3 prolapsed discs, sciatica and bad arthritis. Not cancer. I know it's really hard, but can you work out the best way to keep your mind off it? Read, listen to music, cook, find a MOOC online and throw yourself into it? The waiting is horrible, but you need to find some way of lowering the anxiety. Do you have a naturopath? They could prescribe St John's Wort and Kava (Mediherb brand) both of which I take because of anxiety/mood swings after menopause/BC and stopping HRT. That could help get you through this, particularly the Kava which acts really quickly. Or go to your GP and get some Valium. That would definitely help. But obviously tell the GP or naturopath about the other drugs, because of interactions. Can you get some counselling too? You've had so much on your emotional plate - I sense you're in overload now and you need to find a circuit breaker. Dumping it all on a good counsellor can really help - I've done it. Take care, and do take some action ASAP about this. No point in suffering any more. Pam xx