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Karen_T
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12 years ago

Worst week yet

So I thought I was handling all of this cancer crazyness ok but this fertility aspect of it has really knocked me for a six.

Have now had 3 internal ultrasounds and 6 blood tests to monitor my hormones and watch the one folical we are going to try and catch.  Ive been super emotional and think it is because I dont feel like I know what is going on with this part of the treatment so it is harder to get my head around it.  The unexpected bill of $3,785 didnt help either! :-(

 I still dont have a date for the egg harvest and ovarie section chop yet but I DO have the start date for my chemo now.  Monday the 30th. Yup. Only 8 days away.

With all the other appoinments I have at the moment I realised that yesterday was the only day I had free to get my hair cut short before starting chemo so off I went to the hair dresser for the chop.

I hate it! As in really really hate it. Infact I think I might even be happy when my hair starts to fall out and and Im looking forward to shaving it!  Feeling pretty low all this week.

One of my awesome friends took Friday off work and we went out to Healesville. It was so nice to get away from the city and have a day where I didnt need to go to the hospital. We walked around the Maroondah Reservoir Park and visited a jeweller we know to check out his shop. 

Have ended up putting a necklace on lay by as I had been looking for something to treat myself with (even though I shouldnt be spending money with all these bills!).  The necklace is just lovely. It has a round rich orange citrine in the center with a pebble that has been cut in half set above and below it. I will post a picture of it once I pay it off.   It actually has a name: Solar Descent; as he got the design idea watching the sunset at Phillip Island and the pebble is from the beach there. The name seems pretty fitting for this situation to me. The sun sets and it is dark for awhile but it does rise again! It will remind me that things get better.

This week I have: My brother staying for a few days before moving to Canada to live, another internal ultrasound, another blood test, the operation for egg/ovarie harvest, a friends wedding and the first chemo round.

Feeling a bit overwhelmed.

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3 Replies

  • Deanne's avatar
    Deanne
    Member
    12 years ago
    Wow, I felt tired just reading about your week and what you have ahead of you. Hazel is right you do need to allow yourself some time to rest. Chemo is major treatment and even those amazing women who work right through it will tell you that they need some flexibility for fatigue issues. The necklace sounds very special and it is a great idea to spoil yourself a little during this tough time. Take care. Deanne xxx
  • Hazel_M's avatar
    Hazel_M
    Member
    12 years ago

    It's understandable you are feeling down and as Donna said don't let yourself stay there. The necklace sounds beautiful, can't wait to see the picture. You sure have a busy schedule going on, make sure you have time to rest, stay in touch when your treatments start, 

    Hazel xx

  • mgndam1603's avatar
    mgndam1603
    Member
    12 years ago

    you have so much going on it quite normal to have these down times, as long as you don't let yourself stay there. When I was like that I vented on this site, I used it for my sounding board and I must say the ladies were awesome and understanding.

    Sounds like Friday was a great day, spending time out like that is a must and what a great friend to do that with you.

    the necklace sounds beautiful and you deserve something special just for you. My husband had a beautiful ring made for me and gave it to me when my chemo was finished, its now named my chemo ring, I didn't get anything once it was all over though LOL.

    Stay in touch, it does get harder once the treatments start, but I'll look out for your posts.

    Donna