Hi Paula welcome to the site. When I started my trip it was at night that as soon as my head hit the pillow I would imagine the worst. I would sit up in the lounge and let my husband sleep because I didn't want to worry him. I think that as women we are strong and in control and when this starts we have no control. ( not that we have much control during treatment) When I found out what was ahead it was a bit better. Be prepared for how your friend and family cope, as we all cope so very different. Be kind to yourself and cry if you need because it is a tough trip. Don't be afraid to ask for help and this site can be a help as we are all here to support you as best we can.
The only way I coped was every day I woke up I tried to start with a positive, when you sit down and think about it you will think of something. Sending you a big hug xx