Hi Mel, wow, the last few weeks must have been fairly monumental for you......it's such a surreal time. Yes, perhaps some runs can be grounding as you approach the daunting prospect of surgery. I'm wishing you all the very best going forward. I'm not sure whether it would be helpful but I find writing has really got me through some difficult times too. The first blog I wrote on this site was about the Eight days between diagnosis and surgery - horrifying but life changing too. You might be able to relate? I hope you find it helpful. All the very best, thinking of you xxx