Where to?

Don't know where to start.  After my first diagnosis 4.5 years I was eager to return to work and regain my "work status".  It didn't happen and I became very frustrated with it all.  Then when I thought what the heck let the young ones have the stress, I was re-diagnosed in the same breast - dec 2010.  This year I had actually planned to retire at age 55 - which is not too far away - and only work a couple of days a week once I had the house in order to sell.  We even thought about travelling around Australia and working on the way.  Things change.  I have been off work since December 2010 having treatment.  My last chemo is next Thursday - then I will look forward to re-gaining my energies.  Still not sure what I am going to do.  I am quite "lucky" as I have insurances to cover some of our living expenses.  I have to totally re-think what I want to do with my life.  Work is not a big factor in those re-thinking processes.  We don't need to really travel around Australia now as my daughter and her family have already moved closer to us.  Most likely we will move even closer to them but someone (at this stage my husband) needs to earn a living.  So you see we have been thrown into turmoil (my husband has his own health issues that developed about 6 months ago).  I see it as positives though.  It is as if we have been spun around a few times and are just waiting to land on the deciding space.  It is very difficult whilst still on treatment and of course the ongoing "build up your strength" time to make any decisions because I am normally a "go get em" type of person who can't sit still.  I thought that I had done my time of patience whilst caring for my late mother who had Dementia.  So there are no answers.  We have to try and find our own "happy place" and live life as best we can.  My happy place is being with my grandchildren especially while they are little so that's what I am aiming for.  I hope that you don't feel alone as we are all here for each other giving whatever advice has helped us on this "pink conveyor belt" ride. XLeonie