You are allowed to have a whinge Kazzi, and given what you've had to deal with, I reckon that youre doing pretty well. All the things that you are worried about are valid and normal from what I can see. It will be good for you to talk to the psychologist as its healthy to talk to a person who is not related or a friend. I've just finished my last chemo 2 weeks ago and will see the radio oncologist on Monday, so will start radiotherapy in the next couple of weeks. I found it useful to have a look at the look good feel better website for makeup tips and this has helped my self esteem and helped me to manage my nude nut. I hope that your nausea and monthly issues pass quickly, when you are hormonal, it just adds to the emotions. Know that this network is a safe place to vent, as we understand and support each other here. Warm wishes and a big cuddle, Trace ??????