Hi:) What you are feeling is very normal.I am 18 months past treatment,and even now,I have my days when I feel down . I occasionally catch myself wallowing in a bit of self pity about having only one boob,but I quickly remind myself that I am alive and VERY healthy,and I am a MUCH stronger person now than I ever was.I know for sure if I ever have to face a health crisis again I will not be afraid.These things are part of life right? In a way we are lucky to have got BC,one of the treatable cancers,and if we learn from this experience we are much better off in the long run in so many ways:) Stay connected on here.This place is like a family with all the extras!! Cheers Robynxox