So glad you found this site. As you can see there are lots of others who have "gone before you" and some who "will travel with you". I was terrified of chemo but before too long it was finished. Sure I have some "lasting" after effects but I did it and survived. There are some very brave people on this site and also out there in the community. Once you have had chemo you will also be one of us. A lovely fella who had half of his face missing due to cancer told me before I started chemo "Chemo is only for a short time" and I have remembered that to help me keep going. Looks like you have found a "buddy" in Linda. I had a "buddy" whilst I did my chemo and it was so good to compare notes. Good luck to you and keep enjoying your little one. XLeonie