We're no Olympians.....but

UNDER CONSTRUCTION!

Day 27 - fifth fill

I think I may have jumped the gun and stopped taking stronger pain killers to early.....Bugger! Never mind I took some Panadeine Forte last night and slept relatively well.....

I checked my scars, like everyday, and measured my chest.....I gained another centimeter after my last fill! My chest measurement is now 110cm...(orginally it was 120cm) and although in reality they are buckled and mishapen, my new boobs are starting to look real under my clothing....It's mind blowing......I still can't believe that I am building new boobs!!!

Morning routine done my handsome chauffeur picked me up and took me into work this morning. A pretty productive day again. :)

During the course of the day I think about what to write apart from what's happening to me physically or mentally.......today I draw from the Olympics and a facebook acqaintence....

A fellow Pink Trooper that I am in regular contact with has just done her last round of chemo! While I sent her celebratory wishes, I secretly shed a tear (well it's not so secret now!)......Why?

Because I am proud of her! I am proud of ANYONE who gets through treatments, gets through everyday, every hour....through ANY disease.......I now KNOW what it takes to get through all that this bitch of a disease MAKES us endure.....and that feeling of finishing a treatment, especially
chemo is so overwhelming!. Her word to describe how she got through ...ENDURANCE.

** Endurance.....the ability to endure an unpleasant or difficult process or situation without giving way.**

That's EXACTLY what this experience is. A trial of endurance.....From the get go the "athlete" in us is activated.....we take a deep breath and prepare physically and mentally for the plan of attack......

I've likened this experience to a road race. We must ride, struggle, fight, sweat, bleed, cry and laugh all while staying on track. We hang on for dear life as we speed down the steep hills.....our bodies ache and burn as we make the climb up those same hills......our minds scream as we are thrown into the twists and turns......and in amongst all of this is endurance...and sheer will.......It's in our DNA.

I have always been astounded at what our bodies are capable of, but when faced with a life or death situation, it's truly remarkable how the body and mind can adapt and survive. There were days where I thought that I should give up, but that primal instinct would kick in.....I must keep fighting.....like the athlete, we push ourselves to our very limits....push ourselves to get to the finish line and claim the prize.....

So, while we are by no means Olympic athletes....we all have our eyes fixed firmly on a prize.....to us, that prize is LIFE ....a cancer free life....

I will love the light for it shows me the way, yet I will endure the darkness because it shows me the stars.

Xx