Welcome Cath,
So sorry to hear you've been back a few times for surgery.It's bad enough psyching yourself up for one.There are a few ladies here who had to go back 3 times like you.So it's not out of the ordinary.I've had 2 bouts of breast cancer 7 years apart- same breast.I had a mastectomy last year,followed by chemo.The time before that I had a lumpectomy and radiation.You are in the shock stage where you haven't had time to take it all in yet.You wake up each morning wondering whether you just dreamt it all.And it's not the sort of operation that you have,then get over and you're better.You have the psychological side of losing a breast and all the changes that come with that and all the ongoing treatments.We all know how you are feeling and there are lots of nice ladies here on this site to chat with.
Tonya xx