Wasn't expecting this.
So it's almost been a week since my last chemo. I've had another busy week, had lunch with a bunch of lovely ladies from the Melbournites group, a couple more photoshoots and now getting ready to be ...
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Thanks everyone for the kind words.
I have been trying to distract myself by doing anything and everything - which has been good in one sense as the place has not been cleaner in a while - but on the other hand I know exactly why I'm distracting myself, it's like at the hospital when the nurses start asking you stupid questions just before they do something painful to you...you know it's a distraction and start thinking about exactly what they are trying to distract you from.
I know there is no point worrying just yet, it may be another couple of weeks before we know exactly what it is, and I couldn't deal with that much stress for that long. I spoke to her again today on the phone, she does actually sound ok with it all, but I still can't move past how old she suddenly sounds. Of course she doesn't sound any different, just my stupid mind playing tricks.
I do feel a bit more together than on the weekend, had a bit of time to calm down and attempt to think rationally.
Still expecting the worst and hoping for the best!!