Wow,you have had a tough time!It really is a roller coaster isn't it? Hopefully things are looking up now,but it's always a bit of the unknown when you are dealing with an infection.Try not to stress too much about chemo.These days,there are lots of medicines to manage the side effects,and chemo is a lot different to what it was many years ago.I remember going to chemo education and thinking " oh my gosh!" And being so scared,but once it started,for me anyway,it was not what I actually expected.Try to keep on taking it one day at a time:)Stay on here and use us for advice and support! All the best for the next few days.xoxRobyn