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Hi Gailmaree.  I too have a sister by your name.  She is my baby sister - Number 5  so I have three other sisters as well.  They feel so helpless whilst I am on chemo and can't wait for me to be finished.  I get really emotional thinking how sad and helpless they must feel - but I love them even more for it.  I am at day 10 after chemo number 2 with two more to go.  For the first 7 days after chemo I am "out of bounds".  After that I start to "come through the tunnel".  I must say the first round was different to this round.  Not better not worse - just different.  This time I was given the neulasta (sorry about the spelling) injection the day after the chemo as the previous session saw me in hospital for 6 nights due to neutropenia.  Day one after chemo for me is okay, day two is bearable, BUT day 3 I just want to curl up and fade away - so sick.  Day 4-7 there is a slight improvement but still not good.  During this week, my sisters try to limit the phone calls until my husband is home to answer.  On the first chemo - no knowing what to expect I was an emotional wreck and cried all the time (this is not like me AT ALL.)  My lovely sister who lives about 1 hour drive away arrived with a car full of baking on day 3.  This was so lovely as I didn't feel like eating anything - no appetite or taste.  Now that I feel good I go like the "clackers" cleaning, washing and cooking in readiness for when I feel lousey and unwell.   Crazy as it might sound when I have energy I use it  in readiness for when I don't.  It is very difficult to know that you are going to come out of the "cloud" when you are stuck in it but gee it is glorious when you start to feel normal.  I don't waste a minute of this time.  Thank you for being their for your sister.  Let me tell you she does not want to cry all the time.  It is the drugs but do keep an eye on her. It is lovely that you are on the site - please let us be there for you as well as your sister. XLeonie