Unraveling!!

Thank you Suzieq, I certainly agree about fair weather partners.  Yes it does eat at your self esteem, but I guess I know from my own instance, it's totally like even the blank page has even been ripped from under you.

I guess I can understand a bit of Lani's partner as he has been through a significantly bad time before.  Yet its certainly no excuse at a time she needs significant support and I understand her embarassment in telling others.  This is where this is such a good avenue for her to at least be able to voice her feelings and be supported as we know at least the cancer side of her journey.

I too have not asked for emotional assistance in my town and have sourced the original lot of counselling via my BC Nurse.  The counsellor was great, but I feel embarassed to go back to him because of my unravelling again.  The town is where my ex was born and due to his mother passing when he was about 5 or 6 the old guard in the town still protect him no matter what - I guess it's what you call the good and the bad of small rural towns.

The counsellor in my case was a male - and I am pleased that I agreed to a male counsellor as I do not want to become a man hater and I know there are some fantastic husbands and partners out there.

He said of the cancer diagnosis, treatment and my partner, "What you have been through with the diagnosis and treatment is the equivalent of just having come out of a war zone, he should have been able to put his issues on hold for  you for a while".  That's true he should have.

I am in awe of those men and partners that do their best to understand and be there for their person going through breast cancer - not only women get breast cancer.

My difficulty is just now moving forward because for every step I take towards that new blank sheet, the futher away it seems to be pulled.  It will happen, I will get there, but I certainly didn't need the emotional relationship journey.

Thank you