Unraveling!!

Lani and Ronica.  My heart breaks for you.  Fair weather partners!  What can I say?  Except, who wants a fair weather partner? What is it about women who, when rejected by a lowlife, seem to want the prick even more!  Look, I understand it must be dreadful going through this hell without a partner but reaching down inside my soul I think it would be much worse going through this with a shallow partner. That would eat away at my self esteem.   If this ever happened to me I would lean heavily on my family and close friends.  I would tell them how much I need their support at this time - I wouldn't pretend to be strong - I would expect their support.   People actually want to feel needed and want to help but do not want to interfere or upset someone going through cancer.  You actually have to tell them!  Once you do you will be amazed at the response.  I would also be telling myself I am going to get through this.  I am going to be stronger, more beautiful fitter and happier than I have ever been in my life.  Look out world here I come.  This is my second chance and I am not going to waste one second of it looking back.  I would be telling myself I have but one life and I will not waste one more precious second of it being emotionally attached to a man who clearly does not deserve me. At times, I have been an absolute bitch to my husband during the past 2 months and he, at times, has been insensitive but at the end of the day I know he loves me and will stand by me no matter what.  I knew that when I married him.  When you get through this, and you will, look forward to your new life.  What that life looks like depends entirely on you - not some shallow bastard.  I truly believe when a door closes a window openes somewhere but you have to close the door first.  You are the author of this new life.  You are currently sitting looking at a the first blank page wondering what to write.  What do you want it to say?  It is up to you.  Love and kisses Suzieq