Unable to sleep &chemo

Hi This is the first time I have used this forum. I have secondary bc something we are all terrified of hearing. We cling to hope that we will be cured or stay in remission for a very long time. Whilst this new diagnosis rocked my world and I looked down the barrel of death I have found that I have a renewed respect for life. I have way too much to do to be sick ha! I look at everything with a child's wonder, little fairy wrens, an unfurling fern, the warm sun, little miracles. I try not to take anything for granted. This has been a positive aspect of diagnosis and prognosis. Of course I have downer days where I feel really fatigued and/ or excruciatingly sad. I allow myself to feel it all and I have noticed I don't stay in that mind set too long. However, I believe how you feel at any given moment is okay and to be respected. I feel much compassion for others going through chemo etc it is no picnic but a great book that helped me and still does with practical advice is Women's Journey with Breast cancer by Petria King. Petria King runs The Quest for Life Foundation in NSW. Google it, there are Retreats etc that are fantastic. Glad to have contacted this site. Love and strength to all.