Unable to sleep &chemo

You have found the right place to come here. We have a wonderful group of women who are understanding as only those who have walked in our shoes can be. There is absolutely nothing to forgive as we all lose the plot on a regular basis through this roller coaster ride. There are times when you don't think you can do it but in the end we pick ourselves up and carry on. I love this quote from Bob Marley, "YOU NEVER KNOW HOW STRONG YOU ARE UNTIL BEING STRONG IS THE ONLY CHOICE YOU HAVE". This is so true and you will find your inner strength. I also lost our beloved pet cat this year, she was 19 years and she was with us since she was 4 months old. So I can so sympathise with you for the loss of your Beni. It is so amazing how our Meggie sat with me through my down times and gave me her warmth. I miss her. I have come to realise that this awful time in my life is a temporary thing and it will pass. I did have times when I despaired as I'm sure that all our beautiful Pink Sisters have experienced from time to time. But the chemo messes with your emotions not to mention you physical being. Keep focusing on your words that "next year will be the best year of your life". You can only go up from being at the bottom. I'd like to share a poem that I wrote during one of my many many sleepless nights. The link to my post is http://www.bcna.org.au/user/12607/blog/62506. I hope it gives you some comfort. Love Janey xxx