The ladies have given you some wonderful advice. I am so glad that you have found this site. It will be a valuable source of support to you during your treatment and as long after as you feel the need. Lovely to "see" Michelle on the site giving support. It doesn't seem very long ago that Michelle was entering the "start and go forward" section of her own bc journey. As she has stated the treatment is doable and it does come to the end (sometimes it seems .......................). I feel for your loss of the little one. What a blessing to have your 5 "babies" to help you through. They will give you lots of love and I am sure your lost bubba will be looking after you from a distance. Best wishes XLeonie