Hi Deb
I'm so sorry to hear that your cancer has spread. How unfair after you have gone through all those tough treatments in the belief that it would be gone forever.
You have every right to be sad, depressed and furious. Let all those emotions out rather than keeping them in. You must be terrified. It's harder to put your faith in the medical profession when promises made to you in the past haven't proven to be true.
I can't say anything that will make you feel better. Only that we are all here to listen and we are all thinking of you and praying for a good outcome. Never apologise for your feelings. Nobody but you knows how you are feeling and you are entitled to those emotions. Who could blame you?
Sending you love and healing hugs,
Xxx Jeanine