Treatment is over. Where did 'normal me' go?
I remember at the beginning of all this, when I was undoubtedly stronger and determined to fight and determined to be proactive in my treatment every step of the way, writing down a list of questions...
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It sounds like you are just totally, overwhelmingly, bodily, mentally exhausted. Even though things have stopped being done to you, they have still BEEN done to you, and you are left with the recovery process long after they have all stepped back. The most poignant part of your post was when you said "I think I might have sighed." That says volumes about just how exhausted you must be at the moment. It sounds like you have a lot of physical issues still ongoing which, once addressed, will help you on the road back to "normality", but you will probably find that once you arrive back in that place, it will look a lot different to the last time you were there. Whether any of us can return to where we were before starting on this journey is questionable, when we have done, seen, and experienced so many things that other people will hopefully never have to. All strength to you Nadine, you will get there, even when you think you can't. Jane