Hey Sandy
All the best for tomorrow, I was surprised when I had my surgery in August last year how well I handled it. The surgery itself was not painful at all and I just accepted this what I had to do to save my life, it was some weeks later that I lost control and had a good cry. Although we all have cancer in common in a way it is a very individual journey, there is no right or wrong way to deal with it, so if you want to cry then do so. You have to grieve for you loss. I will be thinking of you tomorrow and wishing you well. Take care. Kathryne XX