Hi Leanne, hang in there. I had the same experience and same time frame. I have second chemo this Thursday, I am HER - est + & prot + so our treatment will be different but I know your feeling of panic. The chemo has meddled with my brain so sorry for any mistakes in this message. I had a light bulb moment just before chemo when I realised I would live. It was a big moment for me I hope you experience it too. All the best on your journey there will be ups and downs alone the way. We are all stronger than we think . Regards Kim