Decision update.
This is so hard - coz it's the unknowns that drive it. Seems like because of age (47) and Grade (2) why been given option. And no there is no right or wrong. Just my head.
Being a person who will do everything and anything to help anyone - my science head says do the chemo even if reduces reoccurrence figure low. Just because I want to 'nail the bitch that bites'. My non science head says your on the mend continue this way. But the nagging question that wakes me at 2am is 'what if I don't and it comes back?' It's like the masectomy takes it all away that was in the breast. Chemo takes care of what they can't see. And the tablets prevent the cells growing.
This is not only hard on me but the people that love and care about me. But I want to make sure I've done what I can and here for a long time.
So with that it looks like chemo it is. But this could change again - although writing it down and making it public will see how I respond to that.
Have till 11:30 Tuesday to make mind up so only two more restless sleeps.
