@AllyJay great way to look at it. @Kerry66 My thought were I didn't want to have regrets of I wish I'd had the chemo 2 years down the track. It wasn't easy. But the medication resolved a lot of side effects and 12 months on I have a full head of hair and don't really remember much about the experience of chemo now. I'm alive. I choose to believe I am cancer free and have picked up my life again...but appreciate a lot more having that chance. Goodluck with your choice. But make the decision on your best chance not just fear of it. I don't believe the Shannon Doherty advertising of her chemo to have been helpful except for her supporters. For most ladies it is not like that at all. And I cried at diagnosis. After being told I needed chemo for sure and during it. But hell...I still did it. Some people get angry, I cry. Doesn't mean your not strong enough. Kath x