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louiseg
Member
12 years ago

Tired...

I feel tired....tired of all the talk about BC, tired of hearing about people dying, tired of there not being a cure for this horrible disease.

It seems like more and more ladies are being diagnosed, and so many as so young!  So many seem to have secondaries - some live, some die.  I know it is a fact of life and we don't get out of life alive but it's depressing :(

I'm not on here quite as much these days.  I try to carry on with my life as normally as possible and try not to think about the possibility that I will have to face this for a third time...hopefully never again!

A friend has just been diagnosed with secondaries throughout her body and she has accepted it quite well, although obviously still has her down-times.  It's just not fair!  She was clear for about 30 years!  She is now 62 years young and enjoying her grand-kiddies.  She wants to see them grow up but knows that she won't.  She has a new one coming early next year and I have the feeling that once this one is born, she will give up.  I don't see her very often as she is a friend that I have made through another friend and really only see her when I see the other friend (if that makes sense).  I want to be there for her but she doesn't want anyone around her at the moment.  Maybe one day....

I look at my body in the mirror and, while I am really happy with the way that my plastic surgeon has put me back together, I am sad at the scars and the way that it doesn't look like my body any more.  I feel like I've been cut up and put back together in a slightly different way....which I guess is what has happened!  It's clever but weird....

Anyway, I hope everyone is travelling ok.  I'm fine, just having a down-moment!  Things will look better after a nice glass of red and dinner out with some old friends tonight :)

Love to you all,

Louise x

3 Replies

  • NaturalBel's avatar
    NaturalBel
    Member
    12 years ago

    We are all only human and this is the one place we can write how we are feeling, and not be judged.  You were such a fabulous support to me when I was scared, and going through such a tough experience.  Now, I am the one throwing around all the "words of wisdom" and giving out the emotional support to others.

    I found it very confronting part way through to have gone to a seminar and found myself surrounded by many women who were on to their 2nd experience and more.  It was such an emotional time, and I still remained focused and optimistic that Id be ok at the end of it all.  (No guarantees, just pure hope).

    Having seen a program on TV ABC last night about the human brain, and the power of what you focus on mentally, it has been proven how important how we think is.  Through bad news and constant changes this year, I totally understand you frustration.  

    Today, I am well, and I am grateful!  I hope your enjoy that glass of red and your friends, that will flick you out of your downer, works for me!  heheheeh

    Love Bel

  • VivW's avatar
    VivW
    Member
    12 years ago

    It's not a uplifting quote, just a good thought process. Hopefully giving a more positve outlook.

    I too today am having a down and out day, 2 weeks since my hysterectomy/ooperectomy. Tired of being tired. Extra tired from the night sweats,  house is a mess, the two staff members that were employed to replace me are both on sick leave with apendix - you wouldn't believe it. But life goes on around us. I feel sad that you feel sad, but it is warming to know we are travelling down the same path, lets hope it's long and full of joy.

    When will we feel normal or do we just accept that normal is only a setting on a washing machine.

    I am going to have a glass of wine tonight and just enjoy the family.

    Take care

    Viv