Hi Marls, nice to "meet" you. It's not silly i know how you feel. I had my mastectomy in '06 and am now 12 months apart visits. The 5 year milestone (without secondarys) is next Feb and hopefully I will relax a little then (but never get complacent) If ever I'm worried about anything (headaches etc) I head into my GP and get blood tests etc done for peace of mind so I'm thinking of you now and hope you dont worry too much (like thats going to happen!!) can I recommend a bit of relaxing music and a night-cap as a good nights sleep makes for a good start to the next day. I have a c.d of hypnosis for cancer by Rick Collingwood thats great to sleep too if your open to alternative options, didnt think it was for me but very relaxing. Let us know how you go we are all thinking of you and wish you well. Kaz