2am Perth time ergh...thank you so much for sharing your experiences, I can really relate to them. My meeting with the radiation oncologist went very well, I am keen to start. Woke up weepy and had a sob tonight. My psych doesn't get back from hols till the 11/1. I suppose having anxiety and depression prior to this all doesn't help but haven't felt the depression badly until now. My good girlfriends are in the country so I miss their support but they do check in on me regularly. My extended family I live with (I am upstairs in a self contained granny flat) don't want any part of Cancer so I haven't been in an ideal family environment. Eg. not one has even asked how I am since June. I don't want a fanfare but some human empathy would be nice. They think my treatments will kill me anyway and I should be using alternative medicine. 77 year old dad reads my cancer paraphenalia and will chat about things but, bless him, it's not like having a mum's care. I do miss her. Many friends on my facebook 'blog' have said how positive I've been and used humour to get through. But I seem to have hit the wall. xxx
