Hey @viking1, how about you stop beating yourself up - that would be a good start!! I didn't have chemo or radiotherapy but I'm sure the ladies who have will be on here to support you. I do know however, that once the hectic range of treatment, and appointments starts to slow down, that is when everything will start to hit you. You then realise what you have been going through, how much effort it takes to just survive. And as for failing your second chance at life - OMG!!!!! how about you take a deep breath and give yourself a pat on the back for doing so brilliantly. You lovely lady have plenty of time to conquer the world, write a best selling novel, do something positive. In fact the most positive thing you could be doing at the moment is looking after you and if that means binge watching netflix then go for it and if you need to have a good bawl then go for that too!! Nothing wrong with having a good heart wrenching sob - cause that too is a de-stress!!! Sending you a big hug. Xx
