Hi @viking1,
I didn't experience this type of feeling but I believe others have and it may be a sort of delayed reaction. You concentrate hard on getting through chemo, and even if it is really unpleasant you feel you are doing something positive and constructive. Getting through it is a real achievement and you feel elated. Then you have to prepare for another round of treatment with different hurdles and challenges and your mind just goes Sheeesh! Post treatment blues is not uncommon either, for much the same reasons.
Depression is a real risk through all this. You are probably just having a reaction and will get back to normal during your next round of treatment. But if you don't , seek help. Most of us need a bit of boot camp during all this. BCNA can help, your day oncology possibly can too. Don't be so hard on yourself - you're not failing at anything, just belatedly catching up with a lot of feelings and mental fatigue that you have studiously avoided up to now. Take care.
