The Two Month Crash
Hi ladies
Has anyone else come crashing down two months after a mastectomy ?
I thought I was doing well and have only had three melt-downs since diagnosis.
My temporary boob and bra made me feel on top of things - until now. The last few days have made me feel like I no longer belong in this world.
Despite daily massage by my husband and exercises by me I am hating the look of myself. The area is not pretty, although the scar is not too bad - there is still swelling and hard bumps. The cording is getting worse. I hate what my body has become.
Ladies, I am sorry for such a miserable posting and I am sorry for venting like this but only others who have been through it can understand. My husband says "it is OK" etc but I feel he is not being honest about my appearance or how he relly feels about it all. I am feeling left out on a limb.
Even a sunny day is not helping me get over these terrible feelings of self-hate.
Summer