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June1952
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11 years ago

The Two Month Crash

Hi ladies

Has anyone else come crashing down two months after a mastectomy ?

I thought I was doing well and have only had three melt-downs since diagnosis.

My temporary boob and bra made me feel on top of things - until now.  The last few days have made me feel like I no longer belong in this world.

Despite daily massage by my husband and exercises by me I am hating the look of myself.  The area is not pretty, although the scar is not too bad - there is still swelling and hard bumps.  The cording is getting worse.  I hate what my body has become.

Ladies, I am sorry for such a miserable posting and I am sorry for venting like this but only others who have been through it can understand.  My husband says "it is OK" etc but I feel he is not being honest about my appearance or how he relly feels about it all.  I am feeling left out on a limb.

Even a sunny day is not helping me get over these terrible feelings of self-hate.

Summer

  • Summer I know just what you mean!! I have been wearing my prosthesis lately,every day.I don't really like it,but I am getting used to it.However yesterday in Sydney it was so hot I didn't wear it,because it seems to make me hotter.I was ok at home,but when I went to the school to pick up my children,and saw all the Mums in their pretty summer dresses,I felt like a freak!! I just wanted to get home,and when I did,I found that I was out of sorts for the rest of the day.I am ok today though:) We should try to remember that we are part of a group of pretty darn special ladies!! Strong ladies,who can conquer anything now I reckon!!! Concentrate on what YOU have to do to feel better.Exercise,good food,and whatever else you enjoy doing.When those gloomy days come around,just go with them.I don't think,in most cases,they last long .Stay on this blog,because it really helps you feel as though you fit in somewhere,when you feel like a misfit!!!!!!! Cheers xoxRobynxox
  • Summer I know just what you mean!! I have been wearing my prosthesis lately,every day.I don't really like it,but I am getting used to it.However yesterday in Sydney it was so hot I didn't wear it,because it seems to make me hotter.I was ok at home,but when I went to the school to pick up my children,and saw all the Mums in their pretty summer dresses,I felt like a freak!! I just wanted to get home,and when I did,I found that I was out of sorts for the rest of the day.I am ok today though:) We should try to remember that we are part of a group of pretty darn special ladies!! Strong ladies,who can conquer anything now I reckon!!! Concentrate on what YOU have to do to feel better.Exercise,good food,and whatever else you enjoy doing.When those gloomy days come around,just go with them.I don't think,in most cases,they last long .Stay on this blog,because it really helps you feel as though you fit in somewhere,when you feel like a misfit!!!!!!! Cheers xoxRobynxox
  • Yes yes and yes. Chin up my bi-lateral mastectomy was about 3 months ago and I hate the way I look. Some days are better than others. Cyber hugs

    Sarah

  • I'm so sorry that you are feeling this way. Many women have found that getting some counseling, talking with a psychologist or even just having phone counseling (Cancer Council have a helpline) can really help. There is a process of grief with losing a breast and it can take a while for this to really hit home because we are so busy just dealing with the cancer issue at first. The one and only time that I felt a bit this way my husband asked me did I feel differently about him because of his scars(he has had 3 skin cancers removed from his face which have left visible scars). Of course I actually feel even more loving towards him because of his scars and it does not make him less attractive to me at all. I then felt reassured that he was feeling the same way about my scars. There are many ways to help ourselves feel better about our self image. I have found exercise has really helped me. But also I have found a lot of strength within myself that I never knew I had because of having BC. I think that strength has helped me to feel ok and confident about my scars and how my body looks now. We all have moments where we feel down but if you are feeling overwhelmed then giving the Cancer Council a call might be a good idea. You don't have to feel alone with these feelings and sometimes we all need a bit of help to cope with the effects of all this. Hope you can get some help and feel better soon. Take care. Deanne xxx