The sky is falling... Ummmm nope just my hair. "Warning .... artistic semi nude photo"

Hi

I have just worked out how to add comments to posts! I am on Day 7 of my second AC treatment and am beginning to rise to the surface again. Although I used the cold cap for both of my treatments, my hair started thinning after about 15 days of the first treatment. The morning I washed my hair and I felt it come out in handfulls I cried. It is still thinning and now after the latest treatment, my scalp is sore again so I expect the back, which has held on, will soon be leaving me. Although I showed bravado before I started treatment; actually thought hair loss would give me an excuse to go 'natural' and go grey, it's not the same as the constant thought of waking up with more hair on the pillow. I lie in bed, putting off the shower. I have days when I cry for most of the day but yesterday i put my hat on and visited the school where I work. The kids welcomed me with enthusiasm which  warmed my battered ego and today I went to the physio without head covering. This weekend a friend has offered to shave what remains off. I am not prepared; haven't got a wig or comfortable caps to protect my sore scalp because i live in the country but I am sick of my hair everywhere i look. I wonder what i will look like with grey hair? I still have 2 treatments of this AC round and then I have the choice of Docetaxol or paclitaxel for 12 weeks followed by radiotherapy. Bring on 2017!!!