Look I will be honest with you I bought a dress for my funeral. I'm still alive it was something I only dreamed about wearing , very glamorous and it's in the cupboard because it's 3 years since my diagnosis, and I had really shit times .you haven't even got your plan yet,yes that brain will run with despair but only if we allow it, yes go and do something fun but it is ok to feel sorry for yourself as well. And support groups no there not for everyone but it's maybe to early for you or maybe it was a touch of reality that you don't want to be part of but actually are. Sending you a hug. Adean
