I can relate to this! Trying not to compare yourself is tricky at the best of times but you have a right to your feelings several years past I recently had some fears of cancer again but just make room for it and seems to peak about a month before yearly mamma gram& ultrasound. I didn't feel mutilated after lumpectomy but rather developed a appreciation of my surgeon's skill and consideration. I thanked her for it last year when I saw her and she says it helps recovery : physical and emotional. I have a small dent but no scar. I avoided support groups and felt life continued pretty much as normal although I did take some days off during radiation and through out over did self care -if there is a thing! I like massage which supported any physical 'trauma' of treatment . Its not inspirational but I'm not drawn to that concept anyway! Best wishes
