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tannie53
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12 years ago

The roller coaster ride of BC

Hi everyone. Its been a while but I hve been enjoying the freedom of good health and no drs appointments! Until yesterday. It was my first 3 month appoinment and I didn't thnk much of it, just a little nervous like evryone must be. When I went in it was a new doctor to the clinic and he was very nice. He did the routine check up and said everything was fine. He asked how I was and I said I was pretty good, just a bit of lower back niggles from the Tamoxifen. Next thing I know I am booked in for a bone scan! How did that happen! Back on this horrible roller coaster of anxiety and panic. He said he didnt think there was anything to worry about and didn't expect to find anything but to do it just in case. WOW! Part of me wishes I didn't say anything because it is really nothing but niggles. No pain relief required - annoying more than anything and I feel great.  So I am booked in for next Wednesday and I feel so anxious about it. I never thought I would be feeling this again. Anyone been through this? When does it ever stop so that we can just get on and enjoy life???

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    tannie53
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    12 years ago

    Just to let you all know that I went and got my results today....I have arthritis in my neck and the middle of my back. The scan also showed that I had severly injured my tail bone.....About 8 weeks ago I had slammed it on the seat of my push bike!! But I am so relieved after sitting in the waiting room for about 2 hours. I thought I would pass out with anxiety before I even got in to the drs office! I was so relieved that I cried and he said "have you been worried about this?" Oh dear! Well that is done and dusted and I don't have to go back for 6 months! Thank you for great support and reasurring words.

    Tanya x

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    tannie53
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    12 years ago

    Just to let you all know that I went and got my results today....I have arthritis in my neck and the middle of my back. The scan also showed that I had severly injured my tail bone.....About 8 weeks ago I had slammed it on the seat of my push bike!! But I am so relieved after sitting in the waiting room for about 2 hours. I thought I would pass out with anxiety before I even got in to the drs office! I was so relieved that I cried and he said "have you been worried about this?" Oh dear! Well that is done and dusted and I don't have to go back for 6 months! Thank you for great support and reasurring words.

    Tanya x

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    tannie53
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    12 years ago

    Thanks for your reply. Great that you got in the next day. Its the waiting that is so hard. I saw a physcologist today and she helped me rationalise everything.  Good to know I am not the only one with lower back ache and hoping and trusting God for the same outcome as you! You take care too xx

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    tannie53
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    12 years ago

    Thanks for your replies and good wishes. It is good to know others have faced these stresses too. As you say Wendy I guess the anxiety never goes away completely. I really want to be the Ostrich who puts her head in the sand but I know that I can't. Tonya you must have been so worried about your liver. I had a blood test with my GP a few weeks ago who said everything was completely normal so I am hanging on to that! Congrats Chris on your 4 year anniversary and yes I guess it is better to get it checked out! I will do my best to stay busy!! It is so good to have you guys out there for support. This is the best web site! x

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    tannie53
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    12 years ago

    Thanks for your replies and good wishes. It is good to know others have faced these stresses too. As you say Wendy I guess the anxiety never goes away completely. I really want to be the Ostrich who puts her head in the sand but I know that I can't. Tonya you must have been so worried about your liver. I had a blood test with my GP a few weeks ago who said everything was completely normal so I am hanging on to that! Congrats Chris on your 4 year anniversary and yes I guess it is better to get it checked out! I will do my best to stay busy!! It is so good to have you guys out there for support. This is the best web site! x

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    tannie53
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    12 years ago

    Thanks for your replies and good wishes. It is good to know others have faced these stresses too. As you say Wendy I guess the anxiety never goes away completely. I really want to be the Ostrich who puts her head in the sand but I know that I can't. Tonya you must have been so worried about your liver. I had a blood test with my GP a few weeks ago who said everything was completely normal so I am hanging on to that! Congrats Chris on your 4 year anniversary and yes I guess it is better to get it checked out! I will do my best to stay busy!! It is so good to have you guys out there for support. This is the best web site! x

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    TonyaM
    Member
    12 years ago
    You poor darl- unfortunately this is what happens now when we tell our doctors about a niggle or pain.My last bout of bc was in 2010(first one in 2003) so I'm on yearly check ups now.Earlier this year I had routine blood tests and one of my liver enzymes was elevated.So next thing I know I have to have an abdominal ultrasound. I was so anxious I might have liver cancer but it turned out to be a fatty liver- which is still not that good but better than the big c. It's good our doctors are vigilant but it does cause us anxiety.I think we just have to factor in checkups/tests into our lives now- accept we'll be nervous and then whoop it up when we get the all clear.Stay busy till next Wednesday- big hug,Tonya xx
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    Chris
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    12 years ago
    Hi Tannie, What a scare for you, and another long wait. It is better to get this checked out now rather than worry, but I guess it is hard not to worry. I am now at my 4 year anniversary, and 6 months ago my oncologist decided to do a biopsy on 2 small raised lumps on my neck. They were new and had been there for 6 months, and although I thought they were from an insect bite, and he said he really wasn't worried, he still rushed me down to pathology to have it done there and then. Suddenly I was worried, and had to wait for results. They were fine thank goodness, but like you I was feeling well and happy and never thought it was anything at all, until the Dr seemed to question these spots. Good luck with your scan next week. Love Chris xx
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    Chris
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    12 years ago
    Hi Tannie, What a scare for you, and another long wait. It is better to get this checked out now rather than worry, but I guess it is hard not to worry. I am now at my 4 year anniversary, and 6 months ago my oncologist decided to do a biopsy on 2 small raised lumps on my neck. They were new and had been there for 6 months, and although I thought they were from an insect bite, and he said he really wasn't worried, he still rushed me down to pathology to have it done there and then. Suddenly I was worried, and had to wait for results. They were fine thank goodness, but like you I was feeling well and happy and never thought it was anything at all, until the Dr seemed to question these spots. Good luck with your scan next week. Love Chris xx