Hi Amanda
Glad to hear that you've got some positive news at last. What you write encapsulates everything that I too feel. I am grateful to be alive too but also know I will never feel like my old self which is something I also mourn. Mostly, though I am upbeat. I still believe in miracles and hope that one day I will get a scan with no sign of cancer. If I don't, then I hope that I at least will get lots more years to spend with my family.
Enjoy your family, enjoy the sunshine and thanks for sharing with us.
Amy x