Tests

We're feeling for you Susan, waiting for test results is one of the very worst things to have to go through.  I obsessed for ages (partly because it was 2 months between my diagnosis and pathology results) and when it all got a bit out of control I just kept telling myself that what I thought about it all, what I wanted to happen, was immaterial. Worrying about bad news won't make it happen, and won't prevent it either. I'm not saying that you shouldn't be hopeful and 'positive' (or at least try to be, tho I found it v hard). What I'm saying is that what's happening is what's happening, and worrying won't change it. If you can find some way into calmness (don't forget to breathe) the whole thing might start to seem a bit less frightening. I couldn't be 'positive' throughout my darkest moments, but I found I could be calm, and that helped.

Having said all that, it is freakin scary, there's no getting around it. Not knowing, gah, it sucks!! Do what you have to do; ask those who can to help you; let it all out if you need to; and consciously try to let go of whatever doesn't help you (whether that's unhelpful ppl, anxiety, whatever). And remember this is the one place where you never need to 'put on a brave face'.

Hang in there, we're waiting with you.
Heather