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Oh Lucy, I wish I could give you a hug. I feel exactly like you described. Diagnosed at age 39, My mastectomy, lymph clearance, chemo and radiotherapy done and dusted and I just got back to work trying to find a new normal but feeling totally different, insesecure, worried, tired of side effects of horomone therapy etc . Then about after 3 weeks back at work I was diagnosed with BRCA2 gene mutation. Its been 3 weeks now since my hysterectomy and I have full blown menoupause, sleepless nights, infection in my wound and bladder, new painful cording under my arm from radiotherapy scarring.... I just can't seem to get off this roller coaster ride called breast cancer! So when people 'are happy for me that it is all over' i just look at them blankly and smile. They really have no clue.....I am so happy I am alive and survived this year, but it does get me down that with ongoing hormone treatment, early menoupause and side effects from this means that we will be on this road for quite some time where initially we all looked forward to 'finish' with breast cancer. We'll have to find joy in life again, with little things and dig deep to find positives on days when we are overwhelmed. I just turned 40, I love my husband and children and my life in general. I really want to find my new normal soon. Hugs to you and all the best with your treatments. Trusting that we both get back on the 'horse' soon and cope better as time passes xxx