Hi Hazel
It will be tough for you to keep bobbing up when you are home alone. I really hope that your partner can be back by your side soon, but only when he is well enough. It is always a difficult question, the 'why me, why us?' I found it helped to think about it realistically. Being sick was not mine or anyone else's fault. It was not some form of punishment because we were not good enough or nice enough, it was just our bodies having a problem, not working right.
Sometimes I looked around and thought why not me? When you see little babies and children with life threatening or altering conditions you think, 'they did nothing to deserve this either'. It just happens and all we can do is trust that the doctors will treat us and we will get better and life will improve again. Hope your chemo goes well tomorrow. Will that be halfway for you? Take care. Deanne xx