For many people the thought is worse than the actuality - it's scary because no-one can give you much idea of how you will react. As far as I can tell, it's got little to do with attitude, some very apprehensive people do better, some very strong and confident people find it very tough. You will know so much better in a couple of weeks. Hard as it is try not to get anxious, it doesn't help and will make it harder to plan. If you can, take someone with you for your first chemo - to talk to, to share experiences with, get you coffee, whatever. Also to take you home. So you don't have to really think about it. Staff are there to help and reassure. You can do it!