Hi Poll,
Sorry to hear about your story, hopefully all will go well for you tomorrow. Totally understand the lonely feeling. No matter what people say or even if they come to see you they never can understand your emotions. Everyone's tolerance and strength is unique and handled differently. Just have to motivate yourself by thinking positively that all is going to be ok --- i am going to beat this!!! Praying helps a lot too.
Good luck and keep us posted on how u go. No one other than us who are going through this can truly understand each others feelings and emotions. Sending you get well wishes and hugs Xxxx