Sue

Thanks Moira, Its funny, I joined up last year when diagnosed and read lots of things on here, but because I was so sick, never really got to the point where I felt like sitting at the computer looking for things I needed to know.  Now I'm at a different part of this dreadful time and finding comfort in what others have to say and that everyone seems to have gone thru similar things.  I think the treatment is worse than the disease, really.  But its nice to know that other ladies have been there before me and are there to say its ok, and you're not stupid.  I am getting to the point of anti depressants too.  In fact, I'm so sick of myself, I've booked into the dr at 9 in the morning.  I would rather be happy than be miserable and make everyone around me the same.  I'm just not like that normally.  So off I go!.  But I did have that feeling, of not another tablet to take.  But some things need a helping hand.  And I'm sick of all the fit people around me saying, exercise, it will make you feel so good.  No it doesn't - not yet anyway. lol.  Its ok when your joints all work good, but I do walk every second day, and there has been no improvement in mood, or movement.  But its still good to do though.  But thankyou so much for your encouraging words.  I will keep coming back, now that I know all these lovely people behind the little stories.  Makes me think I haven't got it too bad after all.  And I'm still here.  Thank you  Sue xx