Sue

Thank you so much Tonya, I needed to hear that.  You just get so caught up in it all and its a long time of drs appointments, tests, operations etc that now that the actual treatment is finished, its not that I miss it, but I sort of feel like I don't know what I'm supposed to feel and feel at a loss, because I don't feel the same way I used to.  Everyone asks everyday, how are you feeling today and I just want to scream.  I know they only want me to get better, but I have to live it and I want it all to get better too.  So I do just try to keep everything to myself so as not to be a burden on my family.  I have the best husband, but he also just likes fo fix things, where I want to just have a winge, lol.  He has been so supportive though, and couldn't have done it without him.  The dr said I am limited with which tablets to take, because during my treatment, I developed blood clots.  Just another in my comedy of treatment.  So some of the different medications can have that affect.  But it has put me thru early menopause and have really bad hot flushes etc, and emotional.  I have never ever been this emotional!  I want to shut me up, let alone those around me.  I just wonder what the statistics are if you don't take these medications.  I want to ask the dr next time if it makes a recurrence of breast cancer alot more acute.  I will give the Arimidex another 3 months to see if I could get better.  I can't believe you had breast cancer twice.  You poor thing, to endure all this twice.  I can only imagine.  You sound like you are very positive though, and I think thats what does get us thru this awful disease.  In all honesty, I really try not to complain to anyone, this is my first time, as I don't want people around me to feel sorry for me.  I want to have a positive outlook, and other peoples sympathy can sometimes hinder that.  But thats human nature.  We all want whats best for others.

As for the radioligist, I am taking legal action against him.  It should wind up fairly soon.  He was negligent in all his dealings with me.  He even rang me while recovering from the lung operation in hospital and then again a month after discharge.  And he has never said sorry for it, just blamed everyone else, even me for it happening.  So thats when I made the decision to sue him.  If he had only said sorry, I wouldn't have gone down that path, as it has been time consuming and and extra burden at this time.  But you at least had success after your botched operation.  How negligent.  You deserve to be compensated for it.  They need to be held accountable for what they do.  I could have been none the wiser.  Just never woken up from my op.  I'm lucky!

Im pleased you also told me it took you 2 years to feel healthy and confident again.  There is hope for me yet.  We do get impatient though.  Thats mothers I think.  We are the ones that does everything for everyone else, so why aren't I better!  I guess I just have to take time.  Thank you again for your support and kind words Tonya.  Sue xx